Something Existing

我知道你回來了 我留了言 看了你在線上 但是你就是不說話
你沒說 但是有些事 我知道

Not really feel nervous or excited about Monday, but it should be a big day for me, because I am gonna start to work. It's gonna be an easy job for me, but I am sure that I will learn a lot more from this position. I don't have any special feeling right now, but I know I will be nervous tomorrow night, like a student who will start the school next day feels nervous about what's coming.

Time goes by very fast, especially all the sudden I realized that I am touching 30 in few years. Somehow, I feel time is pushing me to speed up my path to grow up, to grow up to face the next stage of my life. I remember when I tured 20, I was super happy, because it's time to be whoever I want to be, and then I don't think I really grow up, I perhaps just noticed that I turned 20, but hell, I am turning 30 in few years. Thus, I have to make myself look what I have done, and learn to know what I should do next.

"If I knew you are going there for him, I will help you pick up something more to bring over." She said. Do you hear that? That's what she said, and that's exactly what she told me yesterday.

You have been worrying about if they will like you or not. It's exactly the same way I worry about when the very first time, I met you and your family. What if they don't like me being a foreigner, what if they don't like me because I say anything stupid, or what if you just hate the way I am. And you know what else she said? " No wonder you were looking for shirt before you left" I didn't even remember that I was trying to pick up some clothes for you, but she remembered it.

I guess I am kinda weak lately, because a lot of things can win my tears. I am not sure if it's me who really can be that sensitive about things around me, or I just think too much. I could cry because of a scenerio in the TV, a sentence in the book I read, or lyrics of one song. It seems that I can just so easy to put myself in others' shoes.

And look at the lyric of this song, Lips of an angel, I thought it was about a guy talking about his gf's lips in the beginning before I listened to this song carefully. It reminds me about the feeling I had when I saw your name showed on my cell phone, and how excited I was to hear your voice again. Like the lyric says, it's really good to hear your voice saying my name, it sounds so sweet. And "hearing those words it makes me weak".

(from: http://www.pestaola.gr/images/the_break_up_movie.jpg)

Many of my friends agree that I am good at drinking, but I don't think so, I just have dare to drink. Maybe I do not get drunk easily (like getting drunk after a shot), but I do know exactly when to stop drinking.

If you want to do business in China, you must learn to drink. People there oftenly drink with bowl, not glasses, especially if you are drinking with people who work in the factory, or live in the countryside. I was lucky in those 9 months working in China, because I didn't have chance to drink with people work in the factory, or those who only drink with bowls. However, I had this boss who loves to drink a lot, and when he drinks too much, he would definately want to dance. Thus, from time to time, I would be called to bars at 10pm, even I have to work at 9am next morning. And you can imagine before we arrive bar, my boss has drank some already, and he just wanted to go there enjoy the music and get the alcohol out of his body. However, my boss is still a good drinker. At least, you never see him act stupid by touching girls or hanging there or forcing people to drink with him. He just needs to dance, a kinda dance you only could see in Disco 20 years ago in Taichung.

I saw an old couple while I was waiting the bus in the bus station today. What attract me is that they are foreigner, and they are with an around 4 years old kid. This old couple is very old, well I don't know how old, but their hairs are all white, and skin is filled with wrinkles, but they don't walk very slow.

I was curious why this couple would show up on the Taipei streat, so I supposed that that kid's father should be this couple's son, and they came to visit them. And yes, I should be right by looking at that kid. I even missed my bus because I couldn't help myself to look at them.

Here, I am not talking about butt!!

Well, I had wrote an article to bosses. And here I'd like to share the experience I had today.

I have been thinking a lot lately about my condussion, especially after I read an article. It's about a lady who didn't carry out any of her dreams and then realized that maybe it's a good thing not to make those dreams come ture, after she met her dying friend who owns everything she dreamed of.

It reminds me about a friend of my mom told me once that most of rich families don't have happy life. Look at a friend of my parents who is so rich, but he messed up by falling in love with another woman, and non of his children want to forgive him. Another one who is very rich too but he got fight with his wife a lot, his children are so afraid of their mother because she has kinda mentel illness.

I went to another interview today, it is a pretty big company with about 140 employees in Taiwan, and thousands oversea. Their major business is garment and their customers are well-known, such as GAP......

In the first place, I didn't expect too much about this job because I don't really know if I will have passion for garment at all. But I thought it's no harm to give it a try and to take a look at the company. Before I went to this interview, I had one in the morning and it didn't go very well because the question I asked seemed to make the interviewer irate for certain reason. However, that question never cause the feeling for any of my previous interviews, so I am not really worried about her reaction. It's just that I did have a little expectation about this interview, but it didn't go as smoothly as I thought. Thus, in the afternoon, lets say maybe it's the "garment" and also the interview this morning made me not expect anything from this interview.