Something Existing

The weather is extremely weird these days because all the sudden, it became cold with pouring rain, and thunders. Maybe it's the sign of spring's coming, but does wind blow like that without typhoon??

There was one year, we had a big ass typhoon which is so big that caused a lot of demage in Taipei. That time, many people got cold because the temperature went down so quick, and I am the type of person who got cold whenever others' do (because of my nose allergy). Hence, I got cold and I felt like it's better that I go to clinic first, in case the government announced that everybody doesn't have to go to work. Everything was okay when I go to the clinic, it just has some wind and little rain. But hell, the typhoon started to turn stronge on my way back home. The wind went so crazy (heard that it's about 7 degrees wind that typhoon brought), and the rain was almost like needle when it hit on my body. It was so hard to walk on the street and everything looked like being tearing. Me, my mom, and my nephew were all screaming because we couldn't against the wind by walking, and we were kinda afraid that something might fly toward us. That's the very first time, I felt my home is so freaking far away even it's just around the corner and we just couldn't reach there because of the strong wind. Thus, we gave up our umbrellas, I held my nephew tight, and waited for a better timing to run all the way into the alley. It was so crazy and I gotta hold my nephew so tight so that he wouldn't fly away or get hurt. Hell, this kid was laughing all the way because he thought it's much better than just swimming. That was the most crazy thing I did to walk outside when it's typhoon.

When I was young, I have a lot of ambition, a lot of things that I want to do when I grow up. And now, I grew up, graduated from college and started to work for 3-4 years. Within these 3-4 years, I did not really change my mind. I still have passion to do complish those things I wanted to do.  However, those things have been deducted one by one......

I wanted to earn enough money so that I could go abroad to study master....fail, shit, it's fucking hard to earn big money, I caculated it a little bit....the salary I had that time, to have enough money to study abroad, I need to work for 4 years without spending a cent.

I don't know how it calls in English...rebellion period?? It's just a period of time, you will find kid is out of parents' control. As per my parents' saying, I did not really have this happened before. And for me, I don't really know what it felt like.

These days, I found myself in a not good temper. I got pissed off in a easy way, and I do not like to explain "why", especially to my family. Is it a rebellion period?? I don't really know, but I am sure that now a lot of things can irritate me easily. Thus, get the hell away from me if you don't want me to hell at you!.....bad temper ING!!

I used to love this song "breakaway" by Kellyclarkson when I was in USA. I felt like I was all alone in USA, and I had tried to make something different for myself, because I made a wish, took a chance, amd made a change to go all the way to USA.

There was a news couple days ago talking about a parents are prepare to sue a doctor, due to over 10 times exams, the doctor didn't find out their daughter only has half of right arm. And they did doubt about how come they never saw baby's right arm when they saw ultrasoni picture, the doctor always told them everything would be fine and nothing to worry about. However, after the baby was born, the baby girl does miss half of her right arm. And the excuss that doctor gave this parents is that "ultrasoni cannot prove everything".

Well, here, I don't want to judge anything about this case, but I do think that the doctor should be more careful, because being a doctor is about saving lives.

"Did you watch TV last night around 4:30am?" I asked my mom.

5 dishes and one soup, it's pretty awesome for lunch at home. My mom is a very good housewife who always prepare many dishes for family. No matter how many people will attend the meal, she always prepare at least 3 dishes plus one soup. Sometimes, it's even not strange to see two soups tho.

I am not in a hurry, I am being lazy, I keep everything slower than before, I enjoy everyday, and put a little effort to make it better. Nothing pushes me going forward, and it seems that I wonder around here without moving any where. Maybe I am waiting for a sign or a miracle to tell me what I shall do next. I thought a lot of possibilities, but those are all dream, and all I could do here is wait.

Since last week I quited my job in a very pretty way, I came back to the club of job hunting. Maybe I fought too much, struggled for too long, and got sick from those rediculous requests, and murmur for the past couple months, I don't need any emergency, and I mean to keep everything in a very slow way. Yeah, you can say that I am truely getting lazy. My pace is so slow that my mom has to slow down when she walks with me. It seems that my last job sucked all of my energy, and I am still in the recovering stage!

Last night, I woke up at 2:44AM, and I was surprising having smile on my face, because I heard the sound of pouring rain.

That moment, I raised my head and wore this special smile on my face, and then I realized that it's all because I heard this sound, the sound of pouring rain. The second moment, I was thinking of calling one person, but no, it's 2:44AM here and it should be a stupid thing to make that phone call just to say that "I was woken up by the sound of pouring rain and it reminds me about you, so I had this smiling face on my face". Well, that's stupid!!

Everybody needs some friends, doesn't need a lot, but does need somebody be with you whenever you need. There are so many things happening in our life which you are able to share the moment with somebody you think is suitable for you. What I meant is that something you can share with some friend, but other things you feel like you can only share with others.

For instance, I have this friend in my new work, we share a lot of things together at work because that's what we got in common, and no one else understand work things better than us. We complain, bitch, cheer up, support, and help each other as much as we could. Thus, I only have feeling to talk about work with this friend. And I am so glad that I have someone to fight with me, to stand in the same position, and give me a hand when she feels I need.