Since I finished my trip back to Taiwan, I started to look for job and after couple months of searching, I finally found a way to meet an agency who is willing to have a short interview with me to see if she could find me a proper position. Our meeting will be on Jan. 8, next week.
To be honest, I have no big confidence on myself to find a job I want here. It's not easy in many different ways, such as language and experience. It's Montreal so you need to speak French. As for experience, who would want to hire a not-enough-experience coming from outside of Canada? I understand all the prospectives and all the difficulties but I still have to try. The girl of the agency told me on the phone that their clients wish to have someone have experience within Canada. I understand but I need some chances. I explained to her my situation and it's actually a good start that she is willing to hear me out in person about my experience.
After having the phone conversation with her, in my mind, I started to have all those questions I might have from here and what I shall answer. I have to say that it might be my only chance to get things start to turn and it makes me extremely nervous. I also understand the consequence will be just nothing is gonna happen but I still have to grab hard on this chance.
My brain couldn't stop working since then. I am my anxious on what I should do to prepare a Canadian style interview and what I should deliver to her about my concern and my willing to do anything. I meant it's not that I cannot do other jobs, it's more like I need to continue what I was used to do and do what I am best at for my future. Who knows maybe one day, I will move back to Taiwan and if I have experience in similar role in Montreal, it will be easier for me to find another job in Taiwan. So, an waitress job won't help anything for my future. I do not mind to have a re-start in the fashion industry but I just need a chance.
It's hard for me to carry on but I have no choice to keep on trying. If I success, I could have a better living quality for me and my family, I could find fulfillment in my life, I could have different experience from this country, and intergate into this country. I need it and I need to do it, to change my life here, not just being a housewife, but have some social at work, knowing people, interact with people, and start to love myself a bit more.
There is no doubt that fashion job ain't easy, well, all the jobs are not easy. No matter how many times you asked, I will tell you that don't ever think about working in this industry. But to accomplish one project, it did bring me a lot of joy and achivement. Every day working is another new challenge but the feeling is lovely when everything goes down to the finish point.
Anyways, there is nothing more I could say but to find a job in any way I could. I need it!!